Attitudes towards Realism

Why it’s always been difficult to write for me. May be i had lots of things in my mind and can’t find the starting knot or perhaps haphazardly mingled our neurological stimulus with our heart feelings. But why I am discussing I guess that’s the situation which I always face when I start writing something. 

Well today an unusual question came in front of me_ my elder brother asked why you are not happy with life. I was really stunned or answer less. That’s true I am not satisfied but I wonder stuck how he estimated that what I think of my own. I never had been sad either gloomy for others. Well i was bewildered, perplex, and too confused but now I have answer. I always been fair with others or else I tried to be, I tried not to hurt and well avoid lies. Believe me I have had to face many negative attitudes for that but I can’t change. My elder used to say or teach me that in this world you should have to be little manipulated with thing, attitudes matters persons even with own feelings. You can’t be straight forward in expressing. You should understand what other wants to hear or what you should say. 

And all these stuff, ohhh! It’s so hard on my nerve. I really want to get rid such double face people.  For sake of thought imagine same thing happen to us, like we had been manipulated by others, so devastating I guess. But what, we have had to live in such environment. People all over the planet have same typical requirements. Being optimistic, some day behaviors will revolutionize and I presume it could take a little longer time but yet attainable.  So till then keep smiling  keep dreaming and be happy always

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B@cK! B@cK! B@cK! B@cK!

After a long time I am back on my blog. During past few months it had been really tough as some of our family relations were badly affected by flood, but now by the grace of ALLAH (God) they are settle now. 

I don’t know why but sometimes when we start losing hope, then we really did saw such strong resolute person that we again retain our optimism. I always had lots of ups and downs in my life or else more down and few land mark ups which supported me for long. Whenever I became pessimist ALLAH (God) shows HIS all grace and gave me boost for a new day. As I couldn’t continue my study in chemistry which is still my favorite subject, as lack of finances, and I did my graduation privately in those subjects which I never know. Well the good thing is I cleared my graduation without any teacher guidance, and I suppose I did well.  And the best thing is I am Graduate now.  And I really want to share this with all my friends. I am happy, cheerful, joyful, and jovial or I guess I am in my high spirits of wonderful feelings.  

Really it’s so relaxing to share feeling with all other. I really want to thank my too dear reader Judy Harper for her concern. Thanks really I always need such caring friends, you are good and nice. I really had very few friends who know the true essence of relations and Judy you are one.

And I am happy or happier.

~Pakistan in nature's big catastrophe~

 

(An aerial view shows the flooded village of Kot Addu in Pakistan’s Punjab province August 4, 2010. After wrecking Pakistan’s northwest, the worst floods in 80 years swept through Punjab – Reuters Photo  )

The floods have already killed an estimated 1,500 people over the past week, most of them in the northwest. An estimated 4.2 million Pakistanis have been affected, including many in eastern Punjab province, which has seen numerous villages swallowed by rising water in recent days.

As fresh rains fell Thursday, bloated rivers gushed toward southern Sindh province, where hundreds of thousands of the most impoverished Pakistanis live along the water because of its fertility and because it is cheaper than safer ground.

“Rains have weakened the protective walls and embankments (along the river). It was difficult to get the people to move from their places because they were not willing to leave.”

An aerial view from a military helicopter showed that a vast area between Multan and Muzaffargarh cities looked like a large lake, with the occasional dead cow floating by.

Manuel Bessler, the UN’s humanitarian chief in Pakistan, said at least 4.2 million people were affected, and that the potential for waterborne diseases was worrisome.

“We are facing a disaster of major proportions,” Bessler told reporters in Geneva by telephone. “Even a week after the disaster we don’t have all the details. Roads are washed away. Bridges are destroyed. Whole areas are completely isolated and only accessible by air.”

Pakistan standing all the way surrounded by the century's big flood. We need prayers and more human efforts so the millions and millions of lives which were effected by flood across Pakistan can get back to their normal living.

May ALLAH help us all in the time of crisis.

youth vision with progressive attitude.

 life is strange. few days back i saw this image in an newspaper with a caption of childhood of slum children. i was so moved by that image. the same day i read the news about the bill which parliament passed  about women harassment.
i felt differently.... its good we have bill , and its blessing we have childhood but what is not right.... there is something perhaps, we don't have positive attitude of our education. we can see the bad side but cant appreciate the good side. i agree slum life if quite a difficult one. i did have a chance to see but what i found good is they are satisfied they are working and progressing. they are all together, they need no sympathies but they do need help. and i dont understand by publishing such image what we are doing?
are we helping them? or
are we making them aware that what they dont have and other people have?
i guess we are spreading an air of unsatisfactory life among those. rather such images i guess media had more moral duty on their shoulders, they should urge people to come out and give them employment. they need work rather sympathies. its a facets of life that sympathies makes us weak. and we want them strong so make society aware  of their moral duties.
Women harassment bill through which governmant brought several punishment for such criminals.... but is a civilized society need this? i guess NO
civilized societies don't need such bill. what they need is literacy, education , awareness, and above all conscience which teach them to differ between write and wrong.

childhood is beautiful i also play in mud well that doesn't mean i need to be publicized like i am suffering from life's facilities. of course not.
i only want to make my society aware and especially women, that societies built by us. we are the one we are the home tutor of our children and role model ... we have to taught next generation how to draw a line betwixt right and wrong.
we should rise moral values right from our homes. and
i mast say to all journalist please spread positivity among general mass rather disappointment and hopelessness condition.
we are the people who will put the first stone of healthy society.
make it diffrently.

~_*H@pPiNeSs w!tHiN*_~

Happiness cannot come from without. It must come from within. It is not what we see and touch or that which

others do for us which makes us happy; it is that which we think and feel and do,

for the other fellow and then for ourselves.

"A RoSe WiTh ThoRn"

Well I don’t know why I always found relations so complicated. When I start thinking that I know what other wants, the right next moment my whole approach of mind collapsed. Well its good for me I always keep discovering the worth of people but sometimes I really being little selfish. Really I am sometimes or you can say I being irritatingly demanding. I don’t know should I be or not but yes I do behave like stubborn. You know my mother even my brothers always said girls should show some elasticity as they have to step into another’s life so girls have show some kind of _____ you know cool temperament, patience and above all contentment. Ohhhhhhh well I have all qualities but question which always come in my mind is that, why so much adjustments? Oh I don’t actually know my capacity or capability but yes ______ a thought of married life is always give me a dramatic or can say filmy sentiment, like a perfect happy family.


I guess you all wonder that why I wrote about this well I am also wondering same question about myself, why I write on this. Bu truly give me your opinion, in love or arrange marriage, every girl have to make lots of adjustment or is it only a pseudo statement.

I hervest the best moment of my life!!!!

One thing I believe is that, if we don’t have the practical approach of any incident we can’t feel the actual pain from which people go through during the difficult times of their lives…… that’s what happened  a day back, and that’s what make me remind of all those moments when I felt sheer loneliness and need a touch of love!!




Loneliness is the biggest bug of life. Well I consider the pain of those people, who don’t have any one around them for care, share and love.


I used to be a very loving and stupid girl together. During my educational time in my school and my college ohhhhhh me and my friends disturbed huge number of girls we were so mischievous. I guess when someone see our group they were so definite that we will have something in our mind….. Sometimes we did pranks with our friends too. The same happened with me. My exams our coming nearer and nearer and I don’t attend college on regular basis and used to study now a day’s. Well I don’t belief still what a weird day I spent yesterday. I had been befooled by friends…. Ooooo that’s not so fair.

Story starts with mobile ring, as it rang, I picked the call other side was my friend and she was saying we were plan to attend college tomorrow so be there sharp at 8 o’clock. As I am little punctual I was there at 7:55 and start waiting for my friends. Waiting, waiting and waiting….. Its nine o’clock now and no one yet appeared. College gates were closed and my all hopes were dried out. And near 9:35 I received a breaking call that they befool me. I get up and start searching for some recognized face to talk as a time pass friends. But searching for whole science block I found no one familiar. Ahhhhh (a sigh)!! No one not a single girl,  Oops, and 5 hours to spend. I tried to study but can’t develop concentration. I felt a vast sea of empty feelings inside me, alone…….. No I can’t be. As hardly and barely spend all those hours. And when I get back I gave a tight hug to my mother, and felt alive again….. I didn’t say anything to my friends but thanks them that they made realize the worth of near and dear ones again  .


I know we know the worth of our relations but what I learned is that sometimes in our life we were so busy to feel the importance of those who close and around us and that time, we need a little push and we were all their to care and love with new momentum again. 

A House of Hopes

“Brick, cement and wood, can only be a piece of art but never called a home until we don’t dress it with emotions and love” said my grandmother, the time when I was about to start my new life. My wedding is an arrange type. I have to fly from Pakistan to London, a whole new world. I had been advised from the every member of my family what to do and what not to do.



It took about 8 hours to reach London airport, and an hour more to reach my new home. During the journey I had been thinking, thinking and thinking about a fairy life like in novels and stories. A perfect happy family tied in a bond of Love and togetherness. I know nothing but flooded my mind with random thoughts. I was so confused and perplexed about the new beginning.


During the whole journey my eyes were kept gazing my hands. And I heard a voice in car “only 15 min and we will be in home”. My breath turns so fast even I can hear the sound of my pulse. And few minutes later car stop. My door was open and I stepped out from the car. The grand, impressive and a luxurious wooden house in front of my eyes___ my house or a home, nothing, it’s my dream. I took a step towards the welcome door; no one was present there to welcome me. The very first time my heart shattered. My mother-in-law and everyone was in their room, only a house maid was there to guide me. I came into my room, and change my dress. I came out in the balcony and saw new crack of dawn, with the emptiness of warmth. This is only a building with DO NOT DISTURB broad. Everyone have their own life and set of rules. My big home turns into a hollow, empty vessel in which I can only hear my own voice.