Saturday, November 6

Attitudes towards Realism

Why it’s always been difficult to write for me. May be i had lots of things in my mind and can’t find the starting knot or perhaps haphazardly mingled our neurological stimulus with our heart feelings. But why I am discussing I guess that’s the situation which I always face when I start writing something. 

Well today an unusual question came in front of me_ my elder brother asked why you are not happy with life. I was really stunned or answer less. That’s true I am not satisfied but I wonder stuck how he estimated that what I think of my own. I never had been sad either gloomy for others. Well i was bewildered, perplex, and too confused but now I have answer. I always been fair with others or else I tried to be, I tried not to hurt and well avoid lies. Believe me I have had to face many negative attitudes for that but I can’t change. My elder used to say or teach me that in this world you should have to be little manipulated with thing, attitudes matters persons even with own feelings. You can’t be straight forward in expressing. You should understand what other wants to hear or what you should say. 

And all these stuff, ohhh! It’s so hard on my nerve. I really want to get rid such double face people.  For sake of thought imagine same thing happen to us, like we had been manipulated by others, so devastating I guess. But what, we have had to live in such environment. People all over the planet have same typical requirements. Being optimistic, some day behaviors will revolutionize and I presume it could take a little longer time but yet attainable.  So till then keep smiling  keep dreaming and be happy always

Wednesday, November 3

B@cK! B@cK! B@cK! B@cK!

After a long time I am back on my blog. During past few months it had been really tough as some of our family relations were badly affected by flood, but now by the grace of ALLAH (God) they are settle now. 

I don’t know why but sometimes when we start losing hope, then we really did saw such strong resolute person that we again retain our optimism. I always had lots of ups and downs in my life or else more down and few land mark ups which supported me for long. Whenever I became pessimist ALLAH (God) shows HIS all grace and gave me boost for a new day. As I couldn’t continue my study in chemistry which is still my favorite subject, as lack of finances, and I did my graduation privately in those subjects which I never know. Well the good thing is I cleared my graduation without any teacher guidance, and I suppose I did well.  And the best thing is I am Graduate now.  And I really want to share this with all my friends. I am happy, cheerful, joyful, and jovial or I guess I am in my high spirits of wonderful feelings.  

Really it’s so relaxing to share feeling with all other. I really want to thank my too dear reader Judy Harper for her concern. Thanks really I always need such caring friends, you are good and nice. I really had very few friends who know the true essence of relations and Judy you are one.

And I am happy or happier.